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2014: The Year of Trusting the Process
By Mercedes Kirkel
This morning I woke up with my right eye puffed up and tender. I have no idea why. Was it from allergies? An infection? The stars? I really don’t know. But my having a lack of understanding doesn’t seem particularly unusual these days.
I’m starting to get used to inexplicable things happening on a regular basis. I wouldn’t go so far as to say it feels “normal”—whatever that is. It still feels somewhat bizarre. But I’m certainly a lot less surprised than I used to be when things don’t seem calm and predictable.
It’s kind of like living in an energetic squall, interspersed with periods of calm and rest that never seem to last as long as I’d like. But I’m noticing something, which I find quite intriguing. I seem to be getting everything done I need to get done—including having time for fun. What’s more, I think I’m doing it all with less stress than in the past. Maybe I don’t have the time or excess energy to put into getting stressed anymore. I just need to dive in and do what’s in front of me. Maybe. Again, I don’t profess to any superior insights. I’m just observing the show and noticing the patterns.
I was talking to a friend later today and described what was going on with my eye. Suddenly I realized that it felt like someone had punched me in the eye. Thankfully that didn’t happen, at least not literally. But perhaps figuratively I got an energetic knockout. I did end up having a much more restful day than I’d expected. My morning client—a long distance channeling session—needed to reschedule because her phone wasn’t working. And I couldn’t go to my afternoon appointment because of my eye. So suddenly I had the freedom to do what I really felt like doing, which was to slow way down and work from a very organic, rather than externally structured, place. And in doing so, I actually got a tremendous amount done.
My friend I was talking to has been dealing with her own obstacles, with her computer (which she relies on for her work) acting in all kinds of difficult and testing ways. We agreed that everything seems to be coming down to trust—trust that everything will work out, that we’ll be taken care of and given what we need, regardless of the circumstances we seem to be facing. Everything else, beyond staying in the disposition of trust, seems to be about riding the waves as best we can.
So we decided that the name of this year is “Trusting the Process.” It’s a little unnerving to me that the year is so young. I wonder what else we’ll be encountering as we progress through the months. But I’m choosing not to focus on that. I’m focusing, instead, on trusting the process. I’m sure there’s enough in that meditation to keep me fully occupied. And probably a lot happier, too.
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Mercedes Kirkel is a multi-award-winning author and spiritual channel, bringing forth messages and instruction from Mary Magdalene and other Beings of Light. Her book, Mary Magdalene Beckons: Join the River of Love is available at www.marymagdalenebeckons.com. Mercedes’s forthcoming book, Sublime Union: A Woman’s Sexual Odyssey Guided by Mary Magdalene, will be available in July, 2014. All messages and practices are universal and are not affiliated with any religion.
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Mercedes offers workshops and private sessions in Santa Fe, New Mexico, including Inspired Life & Relationships Coaching, Guidance from Beings of Light, Akashic Healing and Soul Path Guidance, and Light-Filled Intimacy™ Instruction. She is available in-person or long distance (by phone and Skype), or to travel to your location. For more information, go to www.mercedeskirkel.com.
MARY MAGDALENE: When People Disturb You
Cosmic Heart courtesy of Willow Arlenea, www.MysticLifeDesign.com
Given to Mercedes Kirkel
On February 12, 2014
[Note from Mercedes: This was once again a personal message to me, which I believe will have great value for others, as well.]
Blessings my dear one,
I am here. I am with you. I hear you, feel you, and am aware of you and all that’s going on with you. You have been under tremendous stress. Suddenly there seems to be an avalanche of things falling upon you for you to handle, and it appears to be more than you can take care of and be responsible for. Yet you continue to do what you can, attending to what seems most important or urgent in the moment, trying to be as efficient as you can, working as hard and long as you’re able, fitting in a little bit of fun here and there to try and stay balanced, and doing your best to stay calm and not get overwhelmed, frantic, hysterical, or go into physical or emotional collapse.
Is this accurate? (I affirm silently that it is.) I thought so. I would like to offer my help. First, you have heard that there are powerful energies operating at this time. Perhaps the clearest source for information about this is through astrology. It is not actually necessary to know the specifics, although that might reassure you and provide some comfort. For when you see the larger forces that are occurring and affecting you, it helps to understand that this is not just some anomaly happening to you personally. You’re not just incompetent or a bad time manager. You’re actually experiencing huge energies that are greatly affecting you. And you’re doing your best to stay functional and balanced in the midst of this energetic storm or tidal wave. If you understand that, it can help to give you compassion, patience, and forgiveness for yourself.
And of course, it’s not just you being affected by this. Many, many people are. The more sensitive ones are affected the most. Or perhaps it’s more accurate to say that they feel the effects the most. That is why your spiritual sensitives often seem to have such difficult lives. It’s because they are open and responsive to these energetic forces. And it affects them powerfully. Others who aren’t so sensitive or open seem to just proceed with their lives without much effect. That’s because they are doing different soul-level work and their life-path is not about being open to energies the way that yours and others are. You would do well to understand that there are many different reasons that beings incarnate on the Earth, and they can produce vastly different lives. That’s why it’s important not to compare yourselves to others or judge others when they’re not responding the same as you in various circumstances. It is all perfect, from a higher perspective, but this is very difficult to see from the human plane.
You are experiencing disturbance in relationship to a particular person in your life. You continue to periodically get triggered by that person’s choices, wishing that they would make the kind of choices that you make, and feeling hurt and pain when they don’t. Not only is it part of that person’s soul path to be making exactly the kind of choices they are, it is also part of your soul path to have this situation in your life and to learn to come to peace, acceptance, and love with it.
This is what many people are missing who are involved in the new-age spiritual beliefs that everyone is creating their own reality. They see others and think, “That person has created their reality.” There is truth in that. But then they tend to think, “That has nothing to do with me.” And that is an error. For you have created them to be in your life, just as they have created their life to be whatever it is. So the important work for you is to consider why you have created them to be in your life. What lessons are they providing for you? What growth are you accomplishing by calling this in?
While these are valuable thoughts to consider, I urge you to go deeper. Go to the emotional level. There is almost inevitably an emotional component to any situation that is coming to your consciousness. If you are thinking about someone else, you are generally either disturbed, happy, intrigued, or something like that in relation to that situation. That emotion will be your most expeditious help in getting directly to the source of why that situation is appearing in your life.
You might think of it as being like an energetic knot. If you’re not having any response to a situation, it’s like a hose that water is freely flowing through. But if you feel some kind of reaction coming up, it’s as though there’s a knot in the hose and the water gets stuck. That knot creates thoughts that arise in your mind. But the thoughts are generally somewhat removed from the core of the situation. Involving yourself in the thoughts will tend to keep you removed from the center of the knot.
What will take you into the center of the knot are your feelings. The advantage of going to the core, or essence, is that you are then most well-equipped to deal with the real issue that is creating the knot. Most of the thoughts that arise are removed from the real issue and, in fact, keep you distracted from the true issue and event. Often when you’re consumed by your thoughts, you don’t even realize there’s something else going on, something which is much more important for you personally. Your thoughts are a protective device, which keep you from this real issue, until you are ready to address it.
Your ally in all of this is your feelings. By making the conscious choice to become aware of your feelings, you are choosing to work at the deeper level, to go into the center of the knot. You do this because you understand that doing so will address what’s really important, what you have come here to accomplish through this situation, why you have created it in your life. And you trust that it will bring you the growth and peace that you desire, including resolving all the thoughts you’re having.
In your situation this morning, you initially experienced a long period of allowing your thoughts to finally come out—because you had been suppressing them. This is something many spiritual people do. They keep their thoughts or experiences down, such as anger or judgments of others, because they judge them to be unspiritual. This does not really help, because energy never goes away. In your case, you only suppressed the thoughts for a very brief time, because you’ve come to understand the importance of allowing them to arise to your conscious mind, so that you can work with them. It was good that you gave yourself this space of time to simply experience and witness all of your reactivity, pain, judgments, etc.
Then you finally got to the real root. You realized that your disturbance wasn’t really about the person you were having all the reactive thoughts about. Rather, it was about your pain that your father is declining, your fear that he’s isolated and lonely and unsupported, and your sadness that he doesn’t have family with him where he lives who is going through his life transition with him.
You went deeper and saw that this was really about your own sadness and fear about not having a life partner going through your life and challenges and transitions with you. Ultimately you felt how it’s about your fear of life in general, of life’s pains and the ever-looming fear of not surviving, fear that you’re in this on your own and inevitably going to lose.
Then you remembered about trusting God. In your better, more connected moments, you have a trust in God. You trust that all is in divine order and you can let go into that. You felt how you’d gotten disconnected from that trust. And in that awareness, you became reconnected. Once you were reconnected, you found your peace and the full release that comes from uniting with God. You began to breathe deeply again, to calm down, and your body literally let go into the vast embrace of God. Once again, all was well in your world.
Did anything change in relation to your circumstance? Not as far as you knew. The shift you went through occurred entirely in your feeling–consciousness. Yet it could be said that everything changed. It could be said that your feeling-consciousness is all you have, and from there you create your reality, your so-called “outer world.” So perhaps everything changed. You will see with time what occurs.
The cosmic humor is that even if everything changes from this point, in some ways it doesn’t matter. You have reconnected with God and all is well again, whether things change or not. This is your true freedom, your great release and ecstasy. The more you do this and experience this joy, release, and ecstasy, the more you will naturally want to do this. It will start to become more and more of what your life is about. As you spend more and more time in this release, ecstasy, and freedom, your life will change. I guarantee it. That is what will move you into the higher dimensions, because your consciousness has changed. And you will indeed be creating a new reality for yourself.
I love you, support you, and trust you in the midst of this moment, and all the moments of your life. You are a manifestation of divine light. More and more you are finding your way back to remembering that light and drawing upon it as your source, rather than being locked into the relative darkness of your 3D world. As you bring that light to yourself, as you gravitate more and more to the light that you are, you will not only be transforming yourself. You will be transforming your world. For you are not alone in doing this work of becoming the light. Many, many beings are doing this in their own way. The light that you all collectively bring is enormous, powerful, and capable of transforming your world. And so it shall.
In great love,
I AM Mary Magdalene
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Mercedes Kirkel is a multi-award-winning author and spiritual channel, bringing forth messages and instruction from Mary Magdalene and other Beings of Light. Her book, Mary Magdalene Beckons: Join the River of Love is available at www.marymagdalenebeckons.com. Mercedes’s forthcoming book, Sublime Union: A Woman’s Sexual Odyssey Guided by Mary Magdalene, will be available in July, 2014. All messages and practices are universal and are not affiliated with any religion.
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The New Form Of Connecting With God
Mary Magdalene Crying Statue, Sepulcre Arc-en-Barrois
By Mercedes Kirkel
January 22, 2014
My last blog post, “TRUST AND LET GO,” was a big leap of faith for me. As I shared in my newsletter:
I feel very vulnerable when I put out messages that are personal to me—partly because they always come when I’m struggling in some way or other, so in publishing the message I’m revealing my struggles to whoever reads it. The other reason I feel vulnerable is because I doubt that others will relate to my challenges. Even though I have heard repeatedly that that’s not the case, my doubt still haunts me.
Immediately after I sent out the newsletter with that blog post, I started to receive responses from many people, telling me that they’d been experiencing very similar things and that the message from my guides and higher self was speaking to them, too. My heart felt so filled with love and joy upon receiving all th0se emails—the feeling reminded me of Santa Claus at Christmas handing out presents to kids. Rather than the disconnection and emptiness I’d been experiencing, now I felt expansively joyful. It wasn’t the fact that others were struggling that was making me happy. It was because I felt reassured that what was happening was much, much bigger than me, like God-big or Spirit-big. By hearing from so many people, I not only felt connected to others in the midst of my difficulties, I felt reconnected to Spirit. Ultimately, that was the core of what I was suffering—feeling disconnected from Spirit.
Out of this death-rebirth that I went through, I was given a vision of a new way of connecting with Spirit. This new way is all about being transparent and vulnerable with others, especially when we’re going through hard times. It requires that we really reveal what’s going on with us, like a clear pane of glass. It was scary for me to do that. I was afraid people wouldn’t respect me or would lose trust in me as someone who has valuable things to share. I thought my pain wasn’t valuable, and in fact would make people distrust me.
But something else happened altogether. People opened their hearts to me. They told me their struggles. And through their sharing, I felt deeply connected to them. I’ve known this part for a long time—that being honest and open about your difficulties opens people’s hearts in relationship like almost nothing else. It’s part of what I teach and coach others to do. What I didn’t realize was that doing this with others would reconnect me to Spirit in such a powerful way. From my vantage point now, that seems ridiculously obvious. But it wasn’t obvious to me before.
I’m imagining a new kind of church or spiritual gathering, where people get together and share their challenges honestly and transparently. Actually, it’s already being done, but under different names. It’s called a 12-step meeting or a Nonviolent Communication practice group, or a women’s or men’s group, etc. But what if we actually called it a God group? What if we acknowledged up front that sharing our challenges with others is one of the fastest and most direct ways to connect us with Spirit? I like that. I like it a lot. Maybe this is the next step in our spiritual evolution, a new way that we’re ready for, of bringing each other to Spirit. Instead of trying to teach each other, preach to each other, or change each other, we simply show each other our human divinity. I suspect the part we’re most hungry for is our vulnerable humanity. And we generally connect with that most strongly through our challenges.
A long time ago, I learned a form of universal prayer that was very simple, yet very powerful. It had two parts. The first part was for releasing whatever was blocking or obstructing you. The second part was for bringing in what you were wanting or intending. What was emphasized was that for the prayer to be effective, we had to engage the first part all the way through to completion. Until we let go of our blocks and obstructions, no amount of intention is going to make a difference. I think that’s because the blocks and obstacles are usually going on in our subconscious, which for most of us is stronger than our conscious mind. So it’s essential for us to do our “housecleaning” there first before we try to install something new.
I’m relating these two parts to the larger process of how we connect to God or Spirit. Perhaps we’re over-focused on the second part, in our intention and efforts to connect with Spirit. And perhaps our sharing our challenges with others is a powerful form of doing the first part, of releasing our blocks to connecting with Spirit. What I like about it is how powerful it is as a process of trust and letting go. We’re not trying to do anything about our struggles, to fix them or change them. We’re simply revealing them to others. In doing so, we’re opening ourselves to God. And it’s happening in a context of being held, energetically and psychically, by others who are hearing and witnessing us. I see this as great form of love and trust, for everyone involved.
Of course this is totally aligned to what Mary Magdalene is explaining in depth in Mary Magdalene Beckons: Join the River of Love. One of her main themes is that our pain is intended to take us into communion with God. In the book, she gives detailed instructions about how we can do this ourselves. Sharing our pain and challenges with others feels like an extension of this, a way we can do this with others.
I love this! What a gift this has been to me, and what a surprise that it’s led me to this place. Thank you to all of you who responded to my sharing my difficulties and in turn shared your own. Thank you for walking this path with me, for helping me reconnect with Spirit in such a profound way, and for showing me a whole new vision of how to do this in the future. I have been feeling so strongly that our future is going to have new forms and processes that are based on co-creativity and mutual support, rather than the old models that are based on authority and hierarchy. I feel I’ve been shown one such process.
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Mercedes Kirkel is an award-winning author and spiritual channel, bringing forth messages and instruction from Mary Magdalene and other Beings of Light. Her book, Mary Magdalene Beckons: Join the River of Love is available at www.marymagdalenebeckons.com. Mercedes’s forthcoming book, Sublime Union: A Woman’s Sexual Odyssey Guided by Mary Magdalene, will be available in July, 2014. All messages and practices are universal and are not affiliated with any religion.
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Trust and Let Go
Image courtesy of Arturo Mann
A Message from Mercedes Kirkel’s Guides and Higher Self
Received on January 13, 2014
[NOTE FROM MERCEDES: This message was directed to me personally. I’m sharing this because my guides told me it would be helpful to others, as well.]
Blessings dear one,
We are happy to communicate with you this day. It has been a while and you have been through a lot. You are feeling cut off a good deal of the time from your connection to Spirit, including your guides. This has been difficult for you, both personally and in terms of your work. So we would like to begin by addressing that.
You are going through a purification. You are somewhat aware of this, but don’t totally understand it and often lose your awareness in the midst of challenging aspects of the purification that come up for you. You are not alone in this. This is happening at a grand scale on the Earth right now. But you are particularly sensitive, so you notice what is going on. You feel at times like you’ve lost your direction and purpose in life. There’s a sense of ennui, of lack of energy for continuing the path you are on, or of apathy, feeling “What’s the point?” This is very hard for you, as you usually are very clear about your purpose and motivated to action based on that.
It is a very deep level of purification that is going on that produces this kind of feeling of being un-tethered, disconnected from your spiritual source. You are being asked to connect from a deeper place, beyond your mind or emotions or physical sensations or energetic experiences. You are being asked to connect from your spiritual body, your higher self, the light that is ever-abiding within you, which is not bound to experiences in your inner or outer life.
This is the purpose of traditional meditation, and many traditional paths focus on this as their primary attainment. While you have had exposure to this, and have experienced that path to a very significant depth, it has not been your primary path. Your primary path has been the more Feminine approach of the heart, the body, the emotions, and sexuality. You understand this Feminine path very well, and have advanced to a great degree through being true to yourself through this path. Now it is time for you to go beyond the confines of that path, just as a traditional eastern practitioner of meditation or yoga or any other practice focusing on the transcendent must at some point go beyond that path and come into the Feminine world of embodiment, manifestation, and form. You are being called to strengthen and become powerful in the transcendent, which is not your natural leaning, but you are fully capable of it.
You have already understood correctly that your daily practice of meditation is very important for finding your stability and centering in something other than the world as you know it. You must begin to allow more time in your meditation for simply resting in the higher dimensions, without manifesting intentions or receiving guidance. Instead, let yourself simply come to rest, to receive whatever is being given to you, beyond form or comprehension. Trust in this process. It is important and will lead you to your next level of growth and development.
Whenever the familiar is being gone beyond, it is challenging. There is a death of the old before, or sometimes as, the new comes in. Particularly at the third dimension, and in your culture especially, there is struggle with this, because it is not understood or embraced with acceptance and surrender. Rather it tends to be fought against out of fear. We understand this and have compassion for you, yet want you to know there is another way. It is the way of trust and faith.
We ask you to have trust and faith, to allow the process that is underway in your life to unfold, to find new avenues of connection to God that are right for you now that will take you to new vistas and horizons of communion with Spirit. Allow it to unfold. Embrace your fear but do not make it your idol. It is a part of you that needs love and attending to, so it can join you on the journey. We are here with you, even though you may not feel us in the ways you are used to. We have not abandoned you. By no means is that case, nor would we want that. We love you and are here with you.
When you are dissatisfied with your life, it is a sign of the old dying. It may also be a sign that you are resisting that death, not allowing it to move forward. Take your dissatisfaction as a sign that it is time to let go. Push off from the banks of the river and allow the current to carry you. It is the current of your life. It has wisdom. It knows what you need in ways that you don’t. Let yourself be carried. You are very good at doing whatever work is involved. Now is a time of trust and allowing yourself to be carried. It is not about self-effort and directed action. Of course there are actions you will take in your life. You know what those are. But at the deeper level, that is not the primary movement of your life. Right now it is about being carried and allowing. We bless you to trust that process, to give yourself to it and to let it take you to the next unfoldment of your life.
You have done this in the past. It is how you were brought to where you are now. You tell your story and it inspires many people. And it is absolutely true. Yet now you are being called to a greater level of this, and even your own past doesn’t necessarily make it easy or clear. Such is the nature of growth and transformation. This is why we are here to support you. We love you and are dedicated to helping you. We are so glad you have opened to us today. We recommend that you do this regularly, so we can regularly infuse you with our clarity and direction.
We are so proud of you and pleased with the work you do. You tend to be quite hared on yourself, which has its benefits because it supports you in striving for the highest. But your view is not always balanced. We want you to know that you are doing superbly well and we are extremely pleased with all you have done and continue to do. To you, it often seems like not enough or so little that you’ve accomplished, but that is because you only understand a small part of what is going on. This is why it takes great faith and release into the greater process, even if you can’t understand or grasp what that greater process really is at this time. That will change at some point, quite possibly after this lifetime, when you will gain great clarity about what you were actually doing and why. But that is not necessarily going to be the case until then, which also has its purpose. That being the case, we urge you to trust, to continue to strive and stretch into the light and love, as you have and continue to do, but with great letting go and allowance as the primary director of your life altogether.
We love you so much and hope this has been helpful for you. We trust that you understand and will make perfect use of this.
In light and love,
Your Guides and Higher Self
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Mercedes Kirkel is an award-winning author and spiritual channel, bringing forth messages and instruction from Mary Magdalene and other Beings of Light. Her book, Mary Magdalene Beckons: Join the River of Love is available at www.marymagdalenebeckons.com. All messages and practices are universal and are not affiliated with any religion.
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Mercedes offers workshops and private sessions in Santa Fe, New Mexico, including Inspired Relating Life Coaching, Guidance from Beings of Light, Light-Filled Intimacy™ Instruction, and Spiritual Instruction and Support. She is available in-person or long distance (by phone and Skype), or to travel to your location. For more information, go to www.mercedeskirkel.com.
My Passage Into 2014
Photo courtesy of Jessie Eastland
By Mercedes Kirkel
January 1, 2014
I was anticipating the Christmas holidays being difficult this year because that’s what I experienced at Thanksgiving. As it turned out, I had a lovely Christmas, though markedly different from any other. From what I’ve heard from others, the unusualness of this holiday season seemed to be true for many people.
There was one event that particularly stands out for me. I was having a special dinner with my father on Christmas Eve, just the two of us eating alone in his room at his assisted living home. We were having a wonderful time, when one of the residents began to have a medical emergency. While eating her meal in the dining room, a piece of food became lodged in her throat and she couldn’t get it out. She wasn’t choking and was able to breathe and talk, but couldn’t release the food.
The woman was brought into the bathroom, which was directly opposite my dad’s open door. Since I was facing the hallway, I was able to see and hear everything that was going on. The attendants tried the Heimlich maneuver several times but to no avail. So the paramedics were called and in marched seven firemen. My dad was completely oblivious to the whole brouhaha, because his back was to the door and his hearing is quite limited. Since the woman didn’t appear to be in any danger, I decided not to tell him what was happening. I guessed it would disturb him and I wanted him to continue to enjoy our special time together.
As for me, I felt like I was in a surreal scene, which reminded me of a Fellini movie. I was simultaneously engaged in a calm, joyful dinner with my father and a swirl of medical commotion that was like a scene out of “ER.” The interesting thing was that I had no problem being fully present for both realities simultaneously.
Reflecting back now, I see this as a mirror of what’s happening for many of us at this time. We find ourselves walking between worlds, holding more than one reality or “timeline” at the same time as we transition into our next phase of higher consciousness. What struck me about the Christmas Eve event was how easeful it was for me to embrace both at the same time and how comfortable I was simply allowing my experience to unfold however it would. It reminds me of Mary Magdalene’s advice in Mary Magdalene Beckons to surrender to the process of transformation like women have learned to do through the natural childbirth movement. And I do believe we are all in the midst of a birth—of ourselves and our world—into the new age ahead.
After dinner that night, my dad and I watched “It’s a Wonderful Life” together. My dad can’t really follow a plot in a movie any longer, so I explained to him what was happening in every scene. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie, but I sensed my father was sticking with it for my sake. At the end he announced, “That was a very impractical movie!” I laughed, knowing that he meant “unrealistic.” I explained my point of view, how it’s an allegory, but perhaps more true than we realize. He relaxed hearing what I had to say, probably mostly because he was happy the movie was over and we were together.
Then my dad did something that felt so endearingly tender and vulnerable—he asked me to tuck him into bed. I remembered all the times as a child he had tucked me into bed. This was the first time he’d ever asked to receive this beautiful ritual from me. Tucking him into bed was really the peak of my Christmas, the most beautiful present I received. I was brimming over with bliss to be able to express our shared love through that simple act.
Right after Christmas I became sick for the second time in the past month. I was surprised and annoyed, feeling unwilling to surrender my plans for the remainder of the holidays to sickness again. Nonetheless, as the sickness took hold I became increasingly dysfunctional with each passing day. By New Year’s Eve, I’d finally let go of all attempts to be productive (which is really tough for me!). Other than a wonderful “Global Group Hug” I participated in through meditation, I spent the day surfing the computer and lying on the couch watching delightful old movies. To my surprise, by nighttime, I actually felt a lot better.
I went to bed with a deeply felt prayer that I may turn everything over to God (including my somewhat compulsive drive for doing my work), allow God to direct my life for the highest good, and profoundly trust that process. I woke up on New Year’s morning feeling like a new version of me—filled with energy and excitement for my projects ahead. Yippeeeeee!!!!! I love that feeling.
I was reminded of Jimmy Stewart’s character in “It’s a Wonderful Life,” suddenly getting his life back and realizing how great it was. The death-rebirth symbolism was hard to miss, as well as the personal lesson that it’s all about surrender to and trust in God, rather than trying to push the river with my ego. Not an easy one for me, as I’m such a dedicated doer. But maybe I’m finally ready to accept this level of letting go into God as the basis of my life. I deeply hope so.
I ask for everyone’s blessings who is reading this, that this “turning of the wheel” into 2014 may mark my transition into living profoundly in surrender, trust, and faith in God. And I send my blessings to all of you – all who are reading this, all my friends and family, and all members of the family of humanity – that we may all receive the gifts we most need as completely as possible; that we may move fully into our next level of embodying our human-divinity; and that our world may become an increasingly blessed and beautiful realm of human consciousness and love for all, by all.
So be it!
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